The End of the World? Not quite...it could still get worse...

This last week has been a bit of a strange one. It started with The newest "End of the world" scare... luckily we all survived that! lol. I think people will do and say just about anything to get a little attention. I got some laughs throughout the day though so it was a good day.

Jeremiah, my ex husband emailed me at the beginning of the week, expressing a great need to talk to me, after getting in touch with him he informed me that he needs to use my Old car for a while because he is living in a storage shed and still hasn't been able to find work but with transportation he thinks it will happen faster.

I heard these words and told him no he isn't living in a storage shed if I can help it so he is staying with me in my apartment for now til he can get the Elantra running and a job. I have been so quick to complain about my "less then worthy shelter" situation out at my parents house... and I hear something like this from someone I still love greatly and I gotta say... I feel like an ungrateful shmuck. He never complains... it's just matter of fact "Hey, I was wondering if you would still be willing to let me use your car for a while because I am currently homeless and without work?" Oh... well sure!!!

I gotta say it has been so nice having him back... even just as friends... It's so comfortable and the dynamic is as always wonderful but it gets me to reminiscing about how the hell we got here of all places... it's so strange to think that I was married to this man... I look at him and I know it happened but it feels strangely like a different person took over my body for a while. I am not the same girl at all but there is always a part of me that belongs to him... We got to talking about the "Us" subject because as soon as he divorced the most recent wife both of our families held true to flipping out at the thought of us getting back together. So naturally, I wanted to hear the trash his parents have been saying... He didn't elaborate... dang it. He did say that he doesn't feel that backtracking is the answer... I agree but disagree too because It's been a decade since we got divorced... Neither one of us is the same person so how can it possibly be backtracking when It's a totally different situation... I don't know. I don't know that I want to go back to him... don't know much of anything except that I am on such a cloud with him around... I haven't been this content in so long... I would like to at least consider it and have it considered... who knows where we will be next week though right? Maybe that guy got the date wrong by a week... lol.

Phoenix James (Sosa) Price finally arrived on March 6, 2011. He weighed 8 lbs. 3 oz and was 21 in. long. As you can see he has tons of dark hair and is just the sweetest baby.

I got to go and spend a couple of days with Phoebe and him right after he was born and I will cherish every moment I got to spend.

Phoenix is being adopted by other friends of ours. The adoption will be open so we can still be a part of his life which I am so glad about. I hope that is how it actually plays out but if not, I have some really precious memories of this little man.

The experience was bittersweet for sure.

Welcome to 2011!!!

I know it's a bit late but being without a computer has taken it's toll on my punctuality. I have several new changes already lined up for this year... some are really good... some are hopefuls and some are a bit sad. First... I still have my job and am just about caught up with all of my training which will secure said job for the next year... I am still loving my job just as much as I did the first week I started almost two years ago... wow... I have found out that there is always something to learn about my clients and I am having a blast figuring out each sweet personality I have been put in charge with throughout the year.

I may have a side job designing website backgrounds and templates here pretty soon. Thanks largely to my dad's new girlfriend. This job just may be my saving grace... up to a thousand dollars per page can be mine. I am really excited to get the internship and start doing something substantial with my artwork. Terry( the girlfriend) says she thinks I have more promise and potential than most of the graduate students who come in looking for a midlevel job. She likes my sense of composition and balance of color and is excited to teach me how to do coding and all the ins and out of web design... so I am keeping my fingers crossed on that and hoping for the best.

Phoebe will be having her baby in a couple of weeks and then is moving back to Washington with her mother... this time for good. I don't like this change... it feels a bit like a chapter of my life is ending and it's one that has been going for 14 years... it will be hard to see her go but I know she needs to... so on that note... I wish her well and hope that it doesn't completely alter our dynamic.